Inexplicable

I meet some girls from **.
We make plans and hang out.
I start drinking and later I'm in her hotel room on the couch with my hand down her pants.
She comes.
I get up and leave before we have sex.
I'm not sure why I do this but some voice or drive in the haze came to me so I left.

I don't know what it means but I wake up, go to an AA meeting and I feel better.