Into the Brink We Go

Rule of 7 time.
For those uninitiated.....I'm a romantic at heart....but the numbers and assessment of the game and trends are a part of my belief system.
The Rule of 7:
The belief that I will sleep with at least 1 out of every 7 chicks I approach/legitimately speak to/hit on. It's more an indicator of where I am and holding myself responsible for approaching than an iron clad law of the universe.
In college, I kept the average to more like 1 for every 2 or 3.
Times is hard and times have changed.
That....and I'm rusty.
But fuck excuses.
I've hit on 1 girl legitimately since homegirl who was the first girl I'd gamed since the stripper awhile back.
See? I average 2 out of 2 in a 2 month span.
I'm 0-1 thus far since the last girl I slept with.
I find hitting on girls you've met before but not pursued is like piss in the pool: mixed results to say the least.

Anyhow...I'll update if/when I see some girls worth approaching tonight.

In other expected and unsurprising news I got the friendzone talk from homegirl.
Given the distance between us and how I broke the rules of controlling my emotional investment & interest level, I am unsurprised.
"I'd still like to be your friend she said."
"I have plenty of friends, thanks. Take care."

I have to draw my line in the sand.
Either a) she comes around or b) she doesn't
Either way, I respect myself all the more and if a) she comes back I have the upper hand and if b) she does not, I know that I didn't accept the pittance she offered and earn back my self-respect.

It was a good reminder in two capacities:
1) I am still capable of intense emotion other than lust - something I wondered were it possible soon or if even at all ever again following the last couple years with the ex and then my marriage
2) the rules EXIST FOR A FUCKING REASON. FOLLOW them or ignore them AT YOUR FUCKING PERIL.

Even for those of us well-educated in the game and with sweet mouth pieces/vicious dick game.....her female wiles will turn on a dime if you disregard some of the rules. The rules simply cannot be broken with wild abandon. They must be broken with purpose and precision.
I was careless, no doubt from nearly 2 years out of the game foxholes and trenches.
That...and again, due to lack of practice and being out of habit...she feigned that she was different. I believed the pretty, pretty motherfucking lies.
Seeing exactly what you want physically has a bewitching effect. Especially coming out of semi-retirement to find what you want hitting on you.

Lesson learned, well, it's never completely learned...but it was reminded to be sure.
Hey, we all slip. It's part of the fun and capriciousness of game that makes game, like Poker maddening yet enthralling and the true core element that makes it fun.

Good luck and happy hunting.
Hoist the black flag.