Some of us never had to fake it 'til we made it

Some truth

The time I read about the dark triad, the trio of traits women often find irresistible or the time my buddy saw a special on womanizers and realized I had virtually all the traits.....

At any rate, the emotional rollercoaster I put women on....at times is a script...but actually, it's instinctual to me because I grew up in an unpredictable, volatile environment and though I have attracted many good, decent, quality women...normalcy is something I crave but can never full understand.

Even in my turning of the page past 30, I can balance my time with a great girl in my life only by finding secret sojourns out into the darkness that come clamoring to me and my nature every so often and keeping the wolfman at bay only works for so long until he comes calling at the appearance of the moon.....

I dated the first few girls I ever thought were pretty and asked out.
It's true.

I made it to college before I struggled with women.
I spent a couple years having off and on success and just dating girls having never had sex with a girl I wasn't dating.

Then I pursued my first ****** girl who put up more resistance than you can possibly imagine.
The 2nd ******girl I dated was the first time I juggled two girls who had mutual groups of friends at neighboring colleges. These were formative times for a young rake.

I had my first outing as a cheat and I just sat back and honestly....said nothing.
I didn't apologize.
I didn't really such hardly anything. I gave no solution.
I realized that two women who desire you....care more about beating the competition than about the fact that you cheated on her.
'Twas a formative moment of realizing that logic would never help me understand women as a group.

- Good luck and happy hunting....