Hold Fast onto Hope but Let the Fuck Go

I look at my looming consequences.
And I let go.
I know I'll probably lose her.
That's okay.
Let go.

Stop trying to control the outcome.

The cold, harsh reality is that I will survive even if I lose everything.
I'll rebuild. I always have and I always will.
I look at my childhood and even my time in the depths of this.....and I am a survivor.
In the reality of it all......if she's absconds while I'm gone....it means she wasn't dedicated enough to be my heroine anyway.

Finding the balance...a woman who loves you as you wish to be loved....I don't know that I've ever had it.
I've had a couple girls come close....

I look again at my looming consequences...and I remember the line in the movie.....fear is a choice. Danger is real....but fear is a choice.

I know on the other side of your greatest fear is liberation and the light of day as you pass through the darkness of the fear deep inside the mountain and when I emerge from the belly of the beast, as though I was swallowed by a whale....my eyes will hurt as they adjust to the light....but I'll be the stronger for it.

The hero's journey lies within all of us as an archetype.

I've "died" in that sense several times....and my tolerance for the depths and the staring off the ledge in the wind.....grows and increases....and each time I emerge less flappable and more prone to the emotional turmoil(s) of lesser, no lesser isn't the right word......of....men who shy away from the fear and the thorny path in favor of safety and security.

Your greatest strength as a man? The willingness to say fuck it and walk away.
It is the trump card.
Women hold literally almost every other card.
If you are not willing to walk away....you are her slave. 
The willingness to choose freedom over fear.
The choice to do it the hard way.
The choice to forget about your stuff, your things, your possessions.

Women and society trick us with shaming and reverse psychology and appeals to our sense of a governing moral compass/order to the world. It's all trickery, smoke, and mirrors.
Call their bluff.
See how quickly they backtrack.
This, however, is the one part of "game" that cannot be faked or if you do it will eventually fail.
I've had two girls actually break up with me in my life.
Two.
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Women appeal to emotion and operate on feel.
The notion of a "deal" or "shaking on it" are like explaining trigonometry to a goldfish.
The fuck does a fish care? It operates in the moment and how it is driven that moment.
Rare is the women who wholeheartedly admits she did wrong without a qualifying statement or reference to how she felt at the time.
I can count, like, maybe.....honestly, never the entire time I was married my wife actually saying "I was in the wrong," or an equivalent. But based on how she felt or perceived what I had done, I was clearly in the wrong.

You simply will not hear it because I honestly doubt the vast majority of women have ever even said those words and the majority of the few that have did it solely to placate you.
Feelings are never wrong to a woman.  
YOU MUST ACCEPT THIS REALITY.
YOU DO NOT NEED TO UNDERSTAND IT. 

This is why arguing with a woman is simply silliness par excellence.
Steady  must be your hand or you risk the course of a ship steered by a capricious child who resents her parents who don't discipline her or the dog who hates its master for lacking the discipline it cannot innately possess due to its nature.