Give Me Liberty/The Front Line is Everywhere

I was sitting at a cafe recently, and glanced up in time to see a former girlfriend driving by. She's married now.
Has the kid.
Married to a dude with a corporate job. She's probably back working now, the kid's probably in daycare. She didn't take long after we split up to hail the taxicab of a dude all to ready to sign up for the plane I had just gotten off of at the last minute. She was a great girl. A ton of fun. Very loving. Supportive. In fact, one of the few women I would have considered having a kid with....almost.

If you make enough money, I suppose having a kid doesn't terribly alter your life....but that's a lie. Even with all the au pairs and the nannies money can by....a woman who has a career or even who doesn't, at least from what I've seen in America...has difficulty balancing that role of wife and mother.

I don't know that I'm willing to sign up for that responsibility nor that I want to.

I've had a number of girls with that sales pitch. Cool girls. Great, in fact. Sexy. Great in bed.
Eventually....the creeping desire to have my child. They see me interact with kids and their heart glows....and the biological clock ticks and Ticks and TICKS  and......

Understand that when you hold that little dog, or she wants you two to get a dog together...this is only the gradual backslide into the next obvious step......

Understand that you are facing down thousands of years of genetic and biological programming and that your rationality means literally nothing in the face of that kind of biological imperative.

I have moments where I grow weary of this vagabond lifestyle.....and though I have learned to allow some creature comfort(s) in my life....waking up to a house full of kids and getting a hard-on at the thought of sleeping in for an hour or two rather than ragging out my woman....man, it just does not sound appealing.

It's like...I could do that....sure....or....wait for it...I could...not do that.
The lie they'll sell you is that you can do it all. You can have kids and travel the world or whatever. I guess it can be done...or you could just not do it. That's an option.

Be selfish. Be mature enough to know that you're too immature to be a parent.

Do what others do, get what others get.
Having a kid as a fallback so you can say "well, I'm a great parent" in lieu of other actual accomplishments and failed half-attempts at things in life.....spare me.