Savages & Coquettes

I'm arguing with my girlfriend.
I intend to break up with her. She doesn't make it easy.
She gets that faraway look in her eyes that I instantly know.
She suspects there is another woman.
I know this look like I know my own name.
I leave, not intending to come back.

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She's young. Her clear blue eyes stare into mine. Her blonde hair lays across my shoulder. She doesn't ask where I was or who I was with but on some level, I suspect she knows.
I forget what I say but she looks at me plainly and clearly and says in a way that is not much of a joke but a calmly cold assertion: "I always get what I want."
There is a certainty, a finality to the words that stretches before my mind like some obelisk in the future.

I feel a cool breeze roam across the inside of my chest.
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I drive back to my girl's place and she looks fucking phenomenal. She smells like woman. She promises things will change. I drink some ******* straight from the bottle and wipe my mouth with my hand and take her face in my hand and admire her features and her gorgeous skin and eyes and lips. I tilt her head back and look at the line of her neck extending down her shirt.
Her small, lithe frame presses into mine. I can't help but get excited when she presses her body into mine.
We go out and drink and I tell her when it's time to go and she plays the submissive part, on my arm, coquettish and shy and respectful of her man, tied to him almost.
We're not even halfway home and she slips my hand between her legs, she's wet and grinding into my hand and for some reason I think of Cormac McCarthy's The Counselor but she's kissing my neck and grabbing my crotch and we barely make it to the parking lot at my place before she's straddling me. I literally carry her inside as I kiss her and she's kissing me and tugging at my belt and complaining how it always gives her trouble so I do it for her and tell her to get on her knees.
I fuck her savagely until she collapses and she wanly touches my face with that certainty of a woman who has conquered her man at least one more day.