Talk Is Still Cheap

How's all that Feminism, no fault divorce, and the like working for you ladies?
Seriously.
So many women I see and know never stop and ask themselves if all this shit they do because they are supposed to actually fulfills them.
Same goes for guys with the kids and the wife and the job.
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Soundtrack:

I finish my grind at the gym.
I eat with some buddies and I feel like a normal person again.

Been out of sorts as of late. Looks like I'll be moving at least temporarily.
I have a date booked later this week. I'm going to take her to my tried and true ********* because it doesn't fail. I've even slept with girls I simply asked to go with me and we never got around to it.
She's got a nice little thin frame but her face is missing something graceful which knocks her considerably in my book. It could be her pixie haircut which I normally like on girls but it doesn't suit her.

Going on a date is no no big deal in the grand sense that I've slept with something like 60+ women. But then again, I've been out of the game and practice for quite awhile, and I'm doing this shit sober now.
I haven't slept with anyone since my last girlfriend and I know that whether or not this girl or the other one I met pan out, it's important to build momentum and start just fucking getting my head back in the world of dating and seduction.

I see now that alcohol was a massive crutch on my end before now.
I see also that though I may not force the interaction as much as I would were I drunk, but I'm also not fucking it up due to overshooting the mark (we've all been there, bro).

In other news I'll probably be telling my stepdad we don't need to keep in touch anymore.
We rarely speak as it is, and honestly, I'd rather just invest nothing than him contacting me when he needs me to run an errand or the rare time he needs someone to listen/talk to.

I run into my ex-wife, she kisses me and I cover up my irritation because I don't feel like fighting.
She's been seeing someone who according to her is great.
But, she pathetically and so mind-blowingly clichéd says that it's complicated.
The short answer to that is "no, it isn't. It never really is that complicated."
That's just fucking bullshit people say.
An excuse.  A farce. A façade.
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I'm standing downtown and it's 130.
I buy some water for a girl who's friends with the chick making out with my buddy.
If she's white girl wasted and gets kicked out it'll interrupt his make out session so I placate the friends and get homegirl some water. Part of me feels bad for her and however many years she has left of this kind of behavior. For some it never ends.
She's cute, dark hair, about my height, fair skin, thick-ish body. If she wasn't white girl wasted I'd probably be making out with her but she completely overshot the mark and c'est la vie.

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I think back to my date with a girl I met *******.
She had mentioned having an ex and that they were separated.
That they would be filing for divorce in ********.
Divorce and separation I've found works on a sliding scale because on one hand she also told me she doesn't believe in divorce.
On the other she says she doesn't really understand marriage.
I'm standing in her apartment and the bare bones of her fragile life and sensibility hits me in the fucking face.
"Dishonesty is something you cannot blame too deeply in a woman."

She briefly tells me about him. I don't say much.
I see myself wrapping my arms around her lithe frame and kissing her neck then smelling her hair.
I let her paint this interaction in her mind however she wishes.
She's exceedingly pretty and I see myself in her bed, my arm around her, for some reason the room is white, very plain and bare, and it's summer. The window is open but there's no sound.

But as it is, I have to go and the image in my mind's eye vanishes as I hug her and leave.
She has to pick some stuff up from her ex's place in a few days.
I think about when I've gone to pick up stuff from an ex's place.
That would always lead to sex.

Knowing as much as I do about women is not without its less than thrilling points.
I do my best to let go of my expectations and drive to the gym.