What do you want?/I've Been Lazy

I give women a hard time on here.
I take them to task quite a bit.
If I'm being abjectly truthful.....I'm far more irritated with my own gender.
I see men, and I'm projecting, I see myself refusing to whole heartedly pursue things beyond a certian point of comfort.

Afraid to really jump both feet first, no rope, Dark Knight style......

I've let my focus on my other blog, training, and work and sobriety take away time from something that obviously remains important to me: this blog.

It's existed since before I was married, while I was married, and now post-marriage.
It's made it through the litany of girls and arrests, the abortion, the police, the everything.

The ups and the downs, have yet to keep this blog from coming back to the surface of my mind.

The voice inside...it will keep insisting.
You can clear away other distractions...you can immerse yourself in new(er) truths....new or old or the same desires and wishes....but truth is undeniable is what I've always felt.
That if you truly stop and listen....the reality will rise to the surface.
The reality of what you need to do...of what you want....of what you're supposed to be doing.
It slowly but surely......settles amongst the dust and the wind of time clears all that away.......