Sometimes the Lion Must Eat Grass

Been working and training hard.
Been busy being a normal person.

As I suspected, the ex-girlfriend and I again hit the impasse of differing expectations. She doesn't fit into my life of training, working, and the program.
Part of it, I also suspect is she doesn't really know what she wants.
She has some father-resentment issues that get directed my way.
She's mad that she gets fitted into my schedule a few nights a week and some of my weekend, but she'll also fall asleep early as fuck weeknights and even ***day nights. I work ***day nights at another job. I don't spend my free night chillin' at home watching Netflix while you sleep for 14 hours.

The sex had already dropped off at any rate. I don't miss it much more than I miss the general sensation of a woman in bed.
Things come and go. Things change. You let them go and if they come back it's up to them.

The good news is I can feel the hunger coming back.
It's been * months since I banged someone other than my girlfriend or my ex-wife.
Time to diversify the portfolio.
It's been slow coming reacquiring my game skills.
I'm going ***** dancing tomorrow to work my conversation skills back to par.
I didn't realize until I began working in this program how nervous some people are throughout their day.
It never ends.
They're always busy. Always fretting.
Always worrying.
It's never enough.
It doesn't occur to them to just reset their expectations and I just.....it's tiring being around those people sometimes.
The flip side is the varying levels of unhealthiness awaiting members of the program with varying levels of sobriety (emotionally and chemically).
I'm out there looking.
I just haven't seen the bird that is what I'm looking for.
I'd like a carefree girl, pleasant, and not driven mindless by spending her 20's social media whoring for attention.
But then, this is 2013. Perhaps, just perhaps, I ask too much?

Who can know such things?

Being a different person, or at least acting like one whilst hoping the change sticks, I don't find the time nor patience for games and the who seems more/less interested in who bit that drives so much of relationship dynamics. It's rare to find someone who can truly be up front about how much they want/like you.
Made worse by the crack rock of social media attention lavished on girls.
Hitting the crack pipe every time 20 guys like their status while it's the ex they're texting and banging out after whatever date from eharmony, while she opines how there's no nice guys and that's what she really wants.....

I don't know what the equivalent is in the way men act, but it's all the same.

"There are only the pursued, the pursuing, the busy, and the tired."

With that, good luck and happy hunting.
I'll work tonight and hope to meet some cute, fresh-faced girls tomorrow.
     - Yrs. in Christ