Go Your Own Way

If You're Reading this I won't be back until the new year.

Reject your programming.
There will be pain and above all doubt.
For doubt is fear and fear is the chief tool by which they herd and cajole and convince and lambast and whisper to you to have you do what they cannot actually force you to do.

But reject the status obsession and the material need for the worthless and the immaterial that is so often material in form.
The right house, car, job, position, coffee table, cheese platter, the dog, the cat the whatever-the-fuck-it-is.

Go forth and set your own standards for in meeting them you are responsible for your own happiness or lack thereof and in failing your own standards again you are only failing yourself rather than some socially-ingrained sense of failure to people who honestly don't matter.

If you're reading this I'm locked up and none of this really matters but you are free in the most literal sense of the word.

For what else there that matters in existence but freedom?
Free yourself from the prison of your mind.

When I get out I know not what the future holds.
I'll reintegrate into society with time but I'm mentally preparing to lose everything while I'm locked up.
I've always known deep down it would come to this.
I've always had this sense....this deeply innate belief I would do this to myself....for it is the Hero's journey....death and rebirth and the choice to abandon mankind or reintegrate a bring some knowledge from the other place to his fellow man.

People greater than myself have endured more than myself and triumphed while people greater and/or less than myself have been felled by less and died in jails and institutions or simply at their own hand.

The war is on for my mind while I'm incarcerated. Will the system break me? If it doesn't will the penalties for my time spent in the belly of the beast keep me from re-integrating in the world of man with his red tape and will I simply pack and move abroad and restart.

That's my doomsday plan.
If all else fails I have some people I know abroad whom I can reach out to and to help me start from the real scratch and claw my way back up into prosperity.