Simplify/Bring on the Winter of Discontent

My girl is out of town so I head out with a buddy in tow. He's with his girl and I'm the unusual single friend. I flirt with some girls, but I am nonplussed. It's like all of the single really wanting to mingle people in this town are at this bar. It's such a revolving rotation of musical chairs while we do an inebriated version of the mating ritual that it actually begins to irritate me.
The talent is fine or whatever.....but no one's really asking anyone anything, no one really wants to know what they're asking, and in fact, we're all just awkward children covering our insecurities and inadequacies with alcohol and half truths and posturing.

Another girl is not what I need no matter how cheaply gratifying that might be for one night.
I literally head home before midnight because I see the falsity and illusory quality of it all.

I head out again the second night and I avoid shots for most of the night. I sip beer while we watch the fights and I again am nonplussed. More pussy is not what I need.
I kick it with some buddies and the man time feels good. That part of my spirit has been neglected for a bit now, too much female energy in my mojo as it were.

In fact.....my job, my chosen sport, and maybe a girl and a handful of friends are all I have the interest to invest in these days.
I literally feel no desire to waste any of my daily energy on people and pursuits unimportant to me.

I wholeheartedly believe you can only pursue maybe 2-3 goals in your life.
And even that's pushing it.
Anyone who disagrees isn't actually good at anything.

My drinking has had some dangerous calls as of late. I don't enjoy it and it's coming close to impacting my training which is enough to make me take pause and assess how it's affecting me in total.

I've been jerking off with semi-regularity lately.
I say this because it's a sign I'm falling into a slump of anesthetizing myself.

I've been doing the same with alcohol and today I stop doing both.
Social drinking only starts that way for me and ends with me blacked out and/or a zombie unable to remember hours of the evening, what I've said to whom and where I've been, to say nothing of how much I've spent.

Take accountability for yourself and stop doing what you're doing unless you want today to be the way yesterday was.

It's time I take some of my own advice before this slump I'm in picks up real momentum and turns into what my life was like before.....I have to embrace the grind, the will to keep stepping forward, know and trust that this, whatever this is, will pass as all things do, good or bad or neither.

   Good luck and happy hunting,
      - Yrs. in Christ